FIFA World Cup

FIFA World Cup...has said to bring the whole world together...it certainly did bring me closer with my family and my friends...all the discussion(or arguments...especially those who are supporting Germany...and lately i found my dad is supporting that team as well!!!...ARGHH)

Anyway...i can still remember my 1st World Cup...i watched sooo many mathces with my dad late at night...i will wait diligently till he comes back home around 12 something...i will quietly sneak out of the room to watch the games with him(if not my mum will bising that i am awake late at night....)...but my dad did not care..it was something both of us like doing together...

then time passed...i got older....and private TV station provider started to rise...like Mega TV and another shit...so watching football was difficult and i had to go school and study..but i try my best to watch atleast 1 game a year(that is SAD...but during World Cup...my dad and i semangat watch together

Then time went till my parents separated and my dad left the house...so this year's FIFA World Cup the 1st few matches watched with mum and aunt...watching it with my aunt was fun.....especially the Argentina vs Nigeria match....this is what happened

Messi(my new crush...although evon might argue he is not good looking..I DUN CARE...GO DIE IN THE SHIT) was running with the ball

Me: Go Messi RuN RUN!!!!
Aunt: He can't get it....
ME: GO Messi Baby..run with those balls!!run with those BALLS!!!
(my aunt looked at me in the weirdest way)

Me: Run with THE 'BALL' Messi....with the ball...lol..

anyway then i got to watch Argentina vs S.Korea at seashell's place...it was fun...we went her hse early...and we played Guitar Hero(which evon got addicted to..and SUCKED at..MUAHAHAHAHAA)...lol..then we walked SOOO far like crazy fellows to get tid-bites....and Prego sauce(Micelle made the BEST homemade pizza i have eaten...coz all the ones i have tried tasted weird...but this one was nice..i am proud of u dick)

Then hearing khavishaah screaming her lungs out was fun as well....and just keeping our eyes on the TV....and halfway fighting with evon about Messi not being Hot...or Germany being better and all those nonsence la...but it was fun hanging out with the girls....i missed that.....We shud do that more often gals

anyway..next argentina match.....23rd......with Greece...and here is a short tribute to my new crush....
IS HE HOTT OR WHAT???(EE VON I DUN CARE WHAT U SAY...BEAUTY IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER...i am not saying he is the best looking guy in this world...but her certainly got my attention(..hmm...i wonder if he is gay..MUAHAHAHHAAH)

Of Loneliness and emoness

Hello everyone...havent blogged in a long time...although i think i should be updating the other study blog instead of this one...but what the heck....i have been reading alot of Michelle's blog..so forgive me if there are any elements of Emo shit(ignore the title)...lol....

Today...June 8 2010...the day after our rat dissection which went peachy btw...i almost passed out twice...but after awhile i got better at it...i started to cut cut out one organ by one organ and arranged it on my dissection tray....i even cut out its tongue....its balls and i got to look inside the scortum where the balls were...it was nice....lol...and i cut off its head and cracked the cranium and looked at its brain that was gruesome(the breaking of the cranium i mean)....and finally b4 throwing it i poked it saraf tunjang...and it was bloody as hell(i realised something i only get dissy and feel faint when blood is coming out of living things when the blood comes out of dead things...i dont get dissy)...anyway that was yesterday....

Today...suppose to go to Midvalley to buy STPM books(i insaf d)....i had to go alone because no one was free to follow me(INCLUDING THE LIFELESS KHAVISHAAH...sorry for calling you as such...but i am menstruationg so alot of emotions...lol)...anyway...my phone battery died so i woke up at 11....took my shower..and was watching some stand-up-comedy videos in Youtube...and was listening to Adam Lambert...and i got ready....while i was getting ready...for some strange reason my heart felt heavy...for no apparent reason...i was feeling lonely...anyway i left home at 1pm..waited for the stupid bus for 30 minutes.....while i was waiting...there was these MPSJ ppl who were chopping down the trees around(the only trees that were keeping Taman Mawar shady from the glaring and burning sun light,ray or whatever shit u wana call it)....then on my way in the bus there was this black dude sitting beside me..he suddenly started talking to me....this is how the conversation went:

Guy:Hello.
Me:Hi
Guy:You india?(i have no idea what was that suppose to mean)
Me:(Nodding head)
Guy:You a student?
Me: (Nodding head)
Guy: Where are you studying?
Me: You don't have to know..
Guy:Tell me where...
Me:(I gave him the silent treatment and was quiet....and he shut up as well...and i gave up my seat for an old chinese uncle)

Once reaching Midvalley I met with Edward and Chun Chern..i said hi and left...and i straight went to MPH...say some books....but all the books were SHITTY!!!...most of the books there were the art stream books...i was like WTF!!! then i thought there might be better books at Borders in Gardens...so i had to go to the other end of the world and looked for the books in Borders...then i asked the cute counter guy( i am hormonally not stable....lol) and this is how the conversation went...

Me: Excuse me...do you have STPM books here...?
Hot counter guy(HCG):I am sorry miss but we don't sell STPM books here
Me: (Giving a stupid expression)...But i checked the computer and it showed that you have an STPM shelf here?
HCG:I don't know why it showed as such miss...but we don't have it here...
Me: Ok thank you then...(smile)
HCG: I am very sorry...(smiles)...you can try looking at MPH though...
Me: (thinking...I JUST CAME FROM THAT STUPID SHOP FROM ACROSS THE WORLD AND I HAVE TO GO THERE AGAIN!!!!!)...

So i left Borders and went to MPH and bought 3 books....and left to McD...i was SOOO ALONE at McD...every1 around were not alone and they were talking and laughing....so i was eating and was looking stupid just looking around...and infront my table there was these 3 HOTT Arab dudes.... when i looked at them all 3 smiled back so HANDSOMELY...lol...1 was very muscular and handsome...one looked very pretty and sexy..and the other one looked quite normal(you all can guess which 1 i found very attractive right..its soo obvious..its the pretty one...lol)...and beside me this chinese married couples(in their late 40's i think)..were fighting...that was entertaining....and i left...i had to go Jusco to buy my bro some baking ingredients....but b4 that i went to the McD counter again to buy 1 sunday cone....but there were these 2 lesbian chick behind me in the line and they were soo horny(they were foreigners but i duno what country)...This is what happened:

A: I want chocolate McFlurry.
B: I don't think they sell that baby.
A: But chocolate is the only thing that tastes nice eaten of your body
B: Then lets go another shop and get a big tub of chocolate ice cream
(and they left the line)

My Mc Chicken was halfway making its way from my stomach back to my mouth hearing that..i felt like puking...but i am greedy...i still got my Sunday cone...and i went to Jusco...shopped...and suddenly my bro called....

Dinesh:Priya i need your help.
Me: Can you call back later i am carrying too many things and i am getting lemons for you...
Dineh: Just listen....MrsUma(When my bro and i are talking..we call our mum by her name...Mrs Uma) called me and was shouting at me...she said i spent RM8 on the phone talking to Kavita(his girlfriend)....
Me: Thats your problem...
Dinesh: Just...talk to her when you reach home...neutralise the situation.
Me: Aiyo...okok..i will try...bye
Dinesh:Bye...

I took the lemons and i was standing at the counter when my mum called...

Mum: Priya...have you bought the things(Milo Milk Margarine Pads and other groceries)
Me: Yes
Mum: WHY???!!
Me: You asked me to buy it last week..but i cudnt so i bought it now...why?
Mum:I don't think we will have enough money to run this month if you buy all that....
Me: How was i suppose to know...you didnt tell me
Mum: because i thought you wudnt buy from Midvalley but will go to Tesco this sunday(when i go to church)...so i can tell you no need to buy..
Me: Thats not my fault...
Mum: How much did Dinesh's ingredients cost?
Me: about RM20...
Mum:Did you ask me if you can use that money to buy his ingredients??
Me: I thought he asked you...
Mum: No he didnt...you and your brother are 1st class at wasting money..he is spending so much money talking to his girlfriend!!!you simply shop..(i was like..i am buying things for the house...not for me alone)
(Mum hangs up)
(Mum Calls again)

Mum:Hello...priya...can you get me green apples...
Me:I am already at the counter..
Mum:(SLAMS the phone)

In order to avoid shouting when i get back..i left the line i was waiting in for so long and went to get apples and waited in another line.....and i paid for everything and i realised i had too many things and they were SHIT heavy and i had to carry it to the bus stop....I kept all the things in on a bench and i was sorting they plastic...stuffing some things in my bag...and i was reminded of a video of Jonathan Groff(the HOTT Jesse St James from Glee)...where he was about to sing a song from 1 of his theatre drama and was giving some intro..he was like.."the song is very awesome...its about the character's mum.....and i have the most wonderful mum in the world"...i was reminded about that...got a little teary...and was feeling emo....although my mum has done SOOO much for my bro and i especially these past 2 years as a single mum....but she still can get a little crazy and psycho sometimes....i want to be able to tell that my mum is the most wonderful mum in the world but i cant...i just cant do that.......

So i called my bro:

Me:Dinesh!! Did you ask Mrs Uma if you can buy the ingredients??
Dinesh: No....ahahahha..why?
Me: Nothing is funny here...she called me and was shouting at me and was shouting about you calling your gf...
Dinesh:hahahah...hahahah.....tell her i will pay back the money for my ingredients..ok
Me:Can you stop laughing..nothing is funny here....i will tell her that..bye....

And in the emoness...i carried all the heavy shits and headed to the bus stop....waited there for so long and i prayed to god to send me and empty bus..and he did...so i got a nice seat and was able to dump my things on the seat beside...and there was this EMO love song playing in the bus...and suddenly my mind started to wander and i was like thinking if i had d bf..he wud have followed me to Midvalley today..and i wudnt have been alone...he wud have been there to comfort me when i got teary at jusco and he cud have helped me to carry the heavy plastics.....whats wrong with me...why cant i even make a guy like me?am i that ugly and uninteresting?

I then snapped out of the emoness...plugged in my headset and was listening to Adam Lambert and his sex songs..lol...and that really helped....i was feeling good

Then i reached home....and everything was ok...my mum didnt shout at me....and now i am writing this shit LONG blog post...sorry for the lengthy post guys....but the heaviness in the heart is still there...i hate my life now..its boring....i cant wait for STPM to finish(which is in 6 months)...and i can do things that i like again...acting...singing...peforming.....watching TV....reading...i cant wait to take up a new book that is not a school book...damn this coming 6 months!!!

Oh ya...1 more story...this happened when i was walking to school the other day when this stranger dude(he was a black dude...and looked really scary) started talking to me...

Stranger: Hello there baby....how are you?
(i was in a bad mood...i was going to get Maths paper...i had to wear the stupid f6 koko baju and the previous day the Chemy marks sucked)
Me:I am feeling like shit now...what you going to do?Huh? Tell me?
Stranger:(looked at me with the expression like."whats wrong with this crazy girl")
Me: You can't do anything right...so don't ASK!!!! (and i walked off)

lol...thats all i got so far guys.....thank you for reading...take care and god bless...adios amigos

RESULTS

Hahaha...getting my results of my first exam is really a humerous story....for starters...i flunked all my paper except MUET(if i ever fail my MUET i think i shud eirther be dead or gone all crazy)..you all know how STPM marking and scoring system is right(well for you dummies who don't know...you are concidered failed if you get less than 50% but you still get GPA..but u really really have failed and get no GPA if you get F(<34 marks)...wana know my marks????

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Lets see.....which order should i go in? Highest?Lowest..(as if it matters....)

Pengajian Am-42 (FAILED)..and dropped 20 marks from last year
Biology- 37 (FAILED) ...and dropped 20 marks from last year
Chemistry-18(FAILED,FLUNKED,CRAPPED,DISSAPOINTED,) dropped 20 marks from last year
MUET- Reading-59/120 isn't that just shitty..i try and try.. i just CANT SCORE THIS PAPER!!!
- Writing-62/90..i know i can improve on it
-Listening 36/45..i have not realised i have good listening skills(coz when someone is telling a very very long story...or when the teachers teach continously...my brain tuned off after 15 minutes..I CANT LISTEN ANYMORE)
-Speaking-39/45...this proves that i am noisy and talkative(thank god for that)

Lastly(DRUMROLLS............................................................................................................)

MATHEMATICS 35(FAILED)...but increased 20 marks from LAST YEAR..YEAY BABY...i am going to obsess on these topics and get "brain-fucked" till I master then like i Mastered Add-Maths.WOHOO.....

Somehow...its very scary knowing that i actually have either increased of dropped EXACTLY 20 marks for each paper minus MUET la....

But i cant seem to see Pn Lee's face....she has done a good job and because of my lazines...she has to suffer.....

It's ok...i will do all my best in my mid-term exam....(planning to pass every paper....can i do it?..of coz...)

I learnt something....in order to have maximum brain capasity when studying....either take weed...get horny.....mastrubate or listen to music.......luckily for me...i dun go drugs....nor do i mastrubate.....but the horny and music thing is the best thing and god has given me a gift called Adam Lambert...who gets me horny...who's music turns me on and calms me down....and whose music turns me on as well...so kudos Lambert....

But i need support from my family and friends who can just take the effort to (SMS,Email,FB,MMS,visiting,) me and just check up on me and give me encouragement....and make me push myself...

GTG now...have to study BIOLOGY!!AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!...

Adios amigos

=)

I see everywhere i turn....faces of couples let it be a guy-gal or guy-guy or gal-gal....it seems nice and touching to be able to share a part of your life with someone and just being yourself when you are with them and confiding in them...laugh with them of break down infront of them with the confidence that that your broken pieces will be picked up by them....when i see such things...i feel happy for them....but the stone part of my heart only thinks of the pain that might hurt us....

My heart is divided in to 2 parts.(three quarter cold stone and one quarter warmth).....so i am just fine by looking at these things and feeling happy.....but the one quarter part...yearns to be loved or even love (but with everything that has happened in my life...i have learnt not to put confidence in people because they will dissapoint....so i live life close to people yet set a nanometer boundary)....
(SORRY FOR THE EMONESS...its the influence of the songs i listen to)

Having a guy in my life will be fun...and i have alot of guys in my life...infact most of my f6 friends are guys....but some1 to have a real thing or even a fling will be cool to reduce the stress of STPM(would that mean i cant cuci mata anymore??)...haha....getting turned on by guys.....or getting high listening to guys(adamgasm to be specific.....which is an official word in Urban Dictionary)...hahah....is very cool and very entertaining(something i need in my boring life now)....but i like the hugging(the best hugs i got was from Jit btw...i miss his hugs)....but its nice to hug....i think people shud hug more......

BAKING

Baking is an activity that brings joy to me(although it doesnt turn out as i wnt it to be...like today's cookie)...baked with michelle and caryn....by taking alot of pics....and going not so crazy because my mum was having tuition.....but Caryn is the worst baking partner u can get...but thank god this project was a trio(sorry Caryn)....with michelle(my son whom i named Dick)....who got married to Caryn.(who somehow became my son in law....bizzare)....and the weirdest part is...my son is 7 months older than me...heheheheheheh.....and while baking...we enjoyed looking at Caryn's laptop with LOTS of pics and videos(and learnt she cant act...sorry caryn)....we made a few batch....and got lazy and spreaded everything onto one pan and baked it as browines(pouring melted choc on it...that one tasted good)...michelle said she doesnt like it...but kept on eating it anyhow(no wonder she is getting fatter...and hairer)...lol...after that watched american idol...shioban was the best....she kinda reminded me of Adam Lambert with her screams......and i got obsessed with Adam again after 1 day controlling myself

Deep Thoughts

All my life i have always wanted, to be able to accomplish great things like travel around the world and to meet weird people with weird cultures....but the thing is...i am stuck....i feel like my left-handedness is being sucked out of me by the demon i call form6.....as i was a TV addict before who watches 4-5 hours of TV everyday am now only watching 4-5 hours TV per week....its been months since i have even watched The Lord of the Rings.....i don't read anymore nor do i write(i do write....but just intelectual stuffs such as shit MUET essays.....PA and the other craps i study at school)....i want to do more....i did it last year for 6 months when i joined theatre...those were the best 6 months of my life...and i miss it.....i miss my old buddies with whom i can joke and laugh and talk nonsence with...having sleepovers and getting high in alcohol....but now....most of the conversation revolves around getting 4.0 CGPA...and getting A+ or credits....those things just put me to sleep....i want creative conversations not intelectual ones....i havent cried for a year or so....so the before yesterday when i listened to Adam Lambert(who is very HOTT and SEXXYY btw) "A Loaded Smile".....i just teared up...and decided to cry as my friend said "crying is good".......and i ended up crying for 1 hour for no reason.....just letting out all the frustration of life....my mum....my dog with cancer and the fact that i resent some ppl....i can't even fullfill my resolutions...thats how sad my life is....a simple resolution of going on a date b4 turning 19 (i can flush it down the toilet)....and my mum asked me if i was a lesbian...i mean common....just bcoz i think guys in school are lame doesnt make me gay(although i am soo gay for Megan Fox)...she said i am not feminine enough...and said i have a heart of stone(which i wonder sometimes myself....i mean currently my bro is going out on dates with this gal...and when he tells me the stories...i just feel bored and feel like its nonsence and feel like puking))....hahhhah.....i cudnt care less...i mean i like songs that talk about anal sex...what else can i expect from myself....i am who i am....i am happy with life...god has blessed me with good health and financially we are doing very good compared to b4 and i still have my family......so i am trying to get in touch with my creative side by writing a drama script for Teacher's Day(hopefully it happens....having witer's block).....teaching myself to play the piano( i cant seem to master guitar though).....and trying some singing.....and of course cooking...baking....hopefully i get a breakthrough from this boring life that i live now